MAYJOR PRAYER REQUEST...PLEASE

I JUST FOUND OUT YESTERDAY THAT AN OLD FRIEND OF MINE MIGHT HAVE LEUKEMIA.

HE'S A YEAR OLDER THAN ME. THEY DID A BIOPSIE YESTERDAY AND THEY WONT KNOW FOR 10 DAYS.

I AM SO UPSET...PLEASE PRAY,

I WILL KEEP YOU UPDATEDE WHEN I KNOW MORE...

I CANNOT SAY WHO IT IS BECAUSE HE DOES NOT WANT THIS TO GET OUT AND HIS FAMILY WANTS IT PRIVATE. PLEASE JUST PRAY...

Merry Christmas In Heaven...

TO ALL ANGELS..MERYY CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN...WE MISS YOU AND WISH YOU WERE SPENDING JESUS BIRTHDAY HERE WITH US.

LUCAS

MILA

ASHLEY

KAYLA

MARIA

MATTHEW

AUSTIN

CALEB

BEN

TANNER

ELGIN

ELIZABETH

ELESHA

JUST TO NAME A FEW...WE LOVE YOU...

FLY HIGH SWEET ANGELS...UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN WHEN WE ALL GO HOME.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE...HAPPY HOLIDAYS ASWELL :) ENJOY SPENDING TIME WITH YOUR FAMILY AS MANY PARENTS ARE GOING WITHOUT A CERTAIN ANGEL THIS CHRISTMAS.

HOLD YOUR FAMILY TIGHT, NEVER TAKE THEM FOR GRANTED, ALWAYS SAY I LOVE YOU, NEVER FEEL ASHAMED TO KISS YOUR PARENTS....

TOMORROW IS NOT GURANTEED....

PLEASE IF YOU DRINK DON'T DRIVE, DRINK RESPONSABLY...

BE SAFE, EAT LOTS, OPEN PRESENTS AND LOVE ONE ANOTHER,

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS,

MADISSEN

6 months...

Yesterday was 6 month, Since...

We have heard un update
Seen new pictures
Watched new video's
Heard cute story's



6 month's since Mila went home...

To some people it may have been another day, but to her family, friends and the people she touched it was a very sad day.



Do I dwell on the past? Yes, sometimes I wonder what she would be like now, but then I stop myself and think. She wasn't meant to be here after June 18th, 2007 at 9:38pm.



Mila thank you for touching my life. I miss you little Sunshine. You were the light of my day since I heard about you. You will forever be a part of my life...

Missing Sunshine,
Madissen



Baby Mila


Mila before being Diagnosed


Mommy and Mila


Mila(Taken Christmas eve 2006 her Nana wrote "Best Christmas present ever" :) )


Precious Mila

Do I get too attached???

My passion is doing this for the kids. I would help any kid in a Heart Beat....

But kids with Cancer is my LIFE...

There are 3 important warriors in my life that I did get attched to...

Lucas Jordan Ryan...Lucas is my 6 month old cousin who passed away from leukemia at 6 months of age. It is going on 8 years in March(2008) since we have seen his sweet smile and heard his adorable giggle. But how could I not get attached he's family. He's my cousin....I am starting up a non-profit foundation for Lucas to help families with sick kids. Look for that hopefully next summer 2008.I NEED HELP WITH IT. IF ANY ONE IS INTERESTED PLEASE EMAIL ME...

Mila Casie Phillips...How do I put into words someone who I have never met yet fell in love with since the moment I saw her? She is "Sunshine". That's the only word to describe 2 year old Mila who was diagnosed with an Inoperable Brain Tumor on Sept 6th, 2007. Mila lived for alomost 9 months after being diagnosed but the tumor was to much. On June 18th, 2007 at 9:38pm Mila went back home to our heavenly father.

I read her story on myspace and was attached. But I was drawn to her story. Like I was meant to for a reason. I believe that God wanted me to meet her and hear her story. To help me figure out exacty what I want to be. To make me realize we don't live forever, everyday is a gift. The last time I had cried was at Lucas' funeral, then Mila's story came along...My heart is missing a certain Angel....

Naythaniel Caleb Andrew Scott Bedard... I heard about Nayt's story on facebook. His mom emailed me and we started to chat. The I found out that this little boy who was 2 was just diagnosed with Leukemia on Sept 7th, 2007. Leukemia? the same thing my cousin had. Well I couldn't help Lucas but I can help Nayt. So I started a myspace for him. More than 1000 people joined to help pray for this amazing warrior fighting a fight no child should have to. I believe God choose me to help with this journey that I am proud to be apart of...

3 kids I have been attached to...

Yes I have meet other kids along the way. That's what I do I help people but I never got attached to them. It hurts when I hear there doing good and then they pass away. But if it didn't hurt you wouldn't be human. When a person passes away it's sad it's your nature to be sad. I have over 500 kids on my myspace with cancer, sbs, autsium and other things. Am I attached to all of them NO. Most I don't even know there names. I feel bad but I just can't. I know I have limits.

Lucas, Mila and Naythaniel were choosen by God for me to find and learn about. To help them in this Journey or just to experince a story so real. I BELIEVE...

I AM "LIVING THE DREAM." This is the motto of one website choosing to help kids with Cancer and other illnesses.

DO I GET ATTACHED TO MUCH???

I am hoping to get into camp trillum to work with kids and families who are or who have experinced cancer. One thing the guy asked was "Does she get to attached?" Yes was the answer by many...

If they knew me well they would know the truth. GOD...He is the reason for everything...

I feel I will talk to people about this but, they just don't listen and it hurts because this is what I am passionate about and what field I want go into and nobody listens...

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Thank you pat for your words on my last post. I deleted the trouble makers and I am contiuing with his page. I will NOT give up and give them the satifaction of them winning. I fight for the children I do NOT give up. I am doing this for Nayt and the other kids...

"Living The Dream,"

Madissen :)

1 STEP FORWARD 5 STEPS BACK...

THIS IS ONE PLACE WHERE I CAN FEEL I CAN BLOG AND NO ONE WILL JUDGE...

AS MOST OF YOU KNOW I STARTED A MYSPACE TO DO WITH NAYTHANIEL ALITTLE BOY IN ALBERTA FIGHTING CANCER.

FOR THE PAST 6 MONTHS I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING A SCAMMER WHO IS CALMING TO HAVE SICK KIDS AND SOME WHO HAVE DIED. IT WAS ALREADY PROVEN UNTRUE AND THE POLICE HAVE BEEN CALLED YET AGAIN.

WHEN WILL SHE STOP?

WILL I PUT OUT ABLOG ON IT BECAUSE SHE WAS USING SOME OF THE OTHER CANCER WARRIORS PICTURES. AND THEY DO NOT KNOW THE SOTRY BEHIND ASHLEY. SO I PUT THAT THEY SHOULD DELET AND BLOCK HER.

SO THEM SOME PERSON SAYS THAT THIS PAGE SHOULD BE FOR NAYT ONLY AN DNOT THE DRAMA.

HELLO????THIS PERSON IS STEALING OTHER PICTURES OF KIDS CLAIMING THEM TO BE SICK OR DEAD AND YOU WANT ME TO SIT BACK AND LET THIS HAPPEN WHEN YOU KNOW IT'S WRONG.

I DONT THINK SO....

THIS ISNT THE FIRST TIME THIS HAS HAPPEND

I AM THINKING OF CLOSING DOWN ALL 3 OUT OF4 MYSPACES AND FINDING SOMEONE ELSE TO CONTINUE WITH NAYT'S.

AM I WRONG TO DO HELP OTHER'S. WE HAVE PVER 1000 PEOPLE ON NAYT'S MYSPACE AND AT LEASTE IF SOME PEOPLE SEE THE BLOG AND BLOCK HER I DID A GOOD THING IN KNOWING THAT THEY ARE SAFE FROM HER SCAMMING.

I AM SO UPSET RIGHT NOW. I DID THE PAGE FOR NAYT AND BECAUSE I BELIEVE I WAS LEAD TO HIM FOR A REASON...

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO?




HELP???

WITH TEARS AND SADNESS,
MADISSEN

Small Update

TOY DRIVE TOOK A TURN FOR THE WORST THIS YEAR...SO NEW IDEA.

THE TOY DRIVE IS STILL GOING ON. IT'S GOING TO BE ON UNTIL NEXT YEAR(2008).
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

THE LUCAS RYAN FOUNDATION WILL BE STARTING THIS YEAR. HOPEFULLY I WILL HAVE IT UP BY SUMMER 2008 :)

I AM LOOKING FOR PEOPLE TO HELP THOUGH I AM STARTING A FACEBOOK GROUP ABOUT IT SO PLEASE STAY TUNED...
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
ASHELY HALL EARNED HER WINGS AND WENT HOME, ASWELL AS KAYLA WEBER. THEY WERE BOTH AROUND THE SAME AGE AND FIGHTING CANCER...

PLEASE PRAY FOR THEIR FAMILIES AS THEY PASSED AWAY RIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS...
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
NAYT IS NOT DOING WELL AND NEEDS YOUR PRAYERS..HE MIGHT HAVE TO GO TO HOSPITAL. HE IS NOT EATING OR SLEEPING...

PLEASE GOD HEAL NAYT'S BODY. RID HIM OF THIS CANCER. PLEASE ANGELS WATCH OVER HIM TONIGHT...PLEASE STORM HEAVEN WITH YOUR PRAYERS...
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS

MUCH LOVE,
MADISSEN

ANOTHER UPDATE...LOL I'M ON A ROLL

This ones for pat 2 lol...

So I found out yesterday I wll have to go to University for what I want to be. I am waiting for more info on that so as it comes in I will tell you more.

OH really awsome news on this one project I had to do with a group we got 31/30..lol how you ask? well we got bonus marks. So we are really happy about that.

So I wanted to update on little Ashley. Doctor's are giving her a WEEK :(. I can't believe it. WHY???

I am sorry I just need to vent alittle.

Mila...Today was the 1st day I have ever seen you mommy cry little sunshine. She was listesting to the song dedicated to your memory that Jake wrote and she was in tears. Since the day you were diangosed I never saw your mommy cry she was brave and strong just like you. But your not here anymore and mommy can't hold and kiss you so she cry's remembering your little spirit.

(I made this for Mila)

Andi(mila's mommy) was in Toronto and I tried to get a hold of her to see her but God had different plans. It wasn't meant to be. I hope to see her someday to meet the mother of the angel that stole my heart.

Something I didn't get til' now...

Mila was born with the inoperable brain tumor but it wasn't discovered until she was 2.

I would like everybody(Dad and Pat) to check out this video of the song dedicated to Mila. There are no pictures of her just Jake singing...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=66EPM9W70Dg

Pat here is the one movie I wanted you to see. It's live changing.

http://zeitgeistmovie.com/

Pat if you could save this website for Naythaniel. It's free you don't need to sign up. You can just come to the page and check on updates. If you want.

http://www.caringbridge.com/ CB Name: naythanielscott

IT'S NAYTHANIEL'S 3RD BIRTHDAY TODAY. I AM SO HAPPY HE DESERVES THE WORLD...

Here is Nayt's birthday Video

Oh and please go to this site to light a candle for my cousin Lucas...

http://rememberedbyus.com/LucasRyan/

That's about it for tonight,

Madissen

THIS BLOG IS FOR MY STEP MOM PAT..LOL...STOP NAGGING ME...LOL...

LONG UPDATE SO BE WARNED....

Ok so...lol I don't know what to say.

I had my mid-terms 3 I think. They were fairly easy and I passed all of them:).Ok I lied I just realized I failed one :( Not good. I DON'T EVEN WANNA BE IN THIS COURSE ANYWAYS.

Like I have said to like everybody I can't concentrate in this course because I don't care for it...I am so pissed I choose it. I am hoping to change courses next semester th what I want to be.

A Child Life Worker in a Sic Kids Hospital:) My pation, my life :) I love all my sick kids buddies I have on my myspace they make my day everyday seeing them smile and knowing they are fighting the biggest battle of thier life and winning:)

I LOVE MY CANCER WARRIORS:)

Tha brings me 2 3 things about Cancer...

My one friend warrior Ashley who is fighting Leukemia is going home to be with our Lord soon. Ashley had a bone amrrow tranplant and she is not going to make it. The doctors say there is nothing left for them to do:( Ashley is dying. Please pray that she has a peaceful and painfree passing to Heaven. Earn your wings Ashley and fly home Angel. BE FREE...

The toy drive in memory of my cousin is doing real well:) Thank you to all who have donated toys. KEEP THEM COMING:)

I AM MISSING MILA SOOOOOOO MUCH LATELY. I miss her updates her smile laugh and cute little spirt. I look at pictures and see videos and don't understand why she had to go so young. But Mila was apart of God's plan and I thank God everyday that Mila became apart of my life:)

SUNSHINE I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH. I KNOW YOU ARE HAPPY IN HEAVEN PLAYING WITH ALL THE OTHER CANCER ANGELS AND ARE DANCING TO ANGELS MUSIC. I HOPE TO ONE DAY SEE YOU IN HEAVEN AND THANK YOU FOR SHOWING ME LOVE AND GRACE AND HOW ONE LITTLE SPIRT ANGEL COULD CHANGE THE WORLD. YOU MADE US SHE THE BEAUTY OF GODS CREATION. YOU WERE THAT BEAUTY AND I KNOW WHEN YOU WNET HOME THAT ALL THE ANGELS WERE HAPY YOU CAME BACK HOME WHILE ARE HEARTS ARE TORN MISSING YOU:(...YOU BLOOMED ON EARTH TO BUD IN HEAVEN. WE MISS YOU SUNSHINE. THE SUN DOESN'T SHINE AS BRIGHT WITHOUT ANYMORE. I LOVE YOU MISS MILA....

Thank you for letting me vent alittle...

ok so I lied I have one more thing to say to do with Cancer,

I WOULD LIKE YOU TO MEET MY FRIEND WARRIOR NAYTHANIEL...

I created both these websites for him. He is from Alberta CANADA.

myspace.com/hopemiraclesfornaythaniel

http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/naythanielscott

or you can watch this video I amde for him:)(please watch them in order)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=evdO7BA3ozo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JSRO1YFT_IY

Ok so I went to the Haunted thingy at Wonderland this year. My first time. It was ok it could have better. It was soooooooooooooo COLD. I mean freezing. It was so hard to keep warm. That and Shirley and I were already sick and this I know made it worse. I went withKatie and Tom and Shirley and Brad. lol I went on the 2 ppl rides by myself :( lol I really didn't care it was fun anyways. I really wanted to go on top gun but they had that closed so these are the rides we eneded up going on...

The swings

Cyclone

Sledge Hammer

Voretx

The one in the mountain

Cliffhanger

Dragon something

Tea Cups(lol katie just loved it)

then we went in like 3 haunted thingys they had. THEY WERE CRAP. Ok I have to admit the last one was ok with the flasing lights and those stupid mirrors were you can't tell which way to go. Tom was our guide through that house lol we were all holding onto each other:)

I went to the states shopping with my aunt and an old friend Juliette(sp?) Anyways we had a GREAT time. We eat a Denny's for breakfast Finally it was sooooooooo good. Then we went shopping the whole day. I blew almost all my money at the dollar store lol stupid me. Then we had to go to tartget and my mommy was gone...Did that stop me form shopping you ask? NOPE lol I borrowed some money that I ahd to pay back :)

Then we went home the same night. It was really fun and everything:)

I'm going home this weekend to Peterborough to visit my old work mates lol I WAS TOLD YOU MISS ME. So I your hostess with the mostess is returing for one night. lol. This should be fun.

Oh I am happy to announce one of my co-workers had her baby. It was a BOY. I can't wait to see him:)

I found a job. Well hoping it works out I will keep you uptodate when I actually get the job.

I am hoping to be starting my own Childhood Cancer Awreness Foundation(non-profit) at the begingin of next year. ONLY FOR CANADA. The staes has one that is now being shut down lol. The chick that was runing it said that she had cancer and all this stuff and now she is trouble with the police. She is screwed. She is also only 16 but still who makes up they have cancer. OH YA I WAS PISSED WHEN I HEARD BECAUSEI KNOW ALITTLE WARRIOR MY COUSIN WHO PASSED AWAY FROM A SHORT BATTLE WITH CANCER, PLUS ANGEL MILA.

I HATE HER FOR DOING IT...

Ok so to get down to good and bad stuff for tv shows HEHEHE.

I HATE PRISON BREAK YES YOU HEARD IT RIGHT I HATE PRISON BREAK. THEY KILLED OFF SARAH AND SARAH AND MICHAEL ARE SUPPOSED TO BE TOGTHER SO SINCE THAT SHOW I AHEV NOT WATCHED IT...

I love beauty and the geek, america's next top model and GOSSIP GIRL...LOL I show I never thought I would watch but yup i'm watching it.

Let me tell you the 1st night without prison break was hard. It was like going through withdrawl lol but Gossip girl makes up for it. SO MANY HOT GUYS ON IT LOL.

Well I have to go to bed now I am so tired. THIS ONES FOR YOU PAT LOL.

SORRY ABOUT SPELLING MISTAKES. I HOPE YOU CAN READ IT. I AM NOT GOING BACK TO CHECK IT OUT LOL.

Oh and Arwyn and Taylor are just the cutest. Growing so much since I first say them.HEHEHE. Arwyn calls me madii. Sometimes it sounds like mommy so I have to really listen. But it's 2 cute. Oh and Tya nd I have magic powers lol. Do u?

Oh and I ahve been sick with a virus since last 2 fridays ago i think. BUT I'M BETTER NOW. Now I just have a cold. The viruse consited of throwing up, stomach pains, throat, major headach and other things...

IF YOU HAVE THESE SYMPTOMS I DID NOT GIVE THE VIRUS TO YOU GOT LOL.

Later,

Madissen

TOY DRIVE, UPDATE AND AWSOME NEWS

Toy Drive update,

It's bigger than ever. The toy drive is going to be in the Hamilton Farmers market. The flyers are going out. Maybe toy drive in Wal-Mart.

When more info comes I will tell you. Seee last update for more info.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Update,
Failed one test passed another. School sucks but i'll deal.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------

THE BEST NEWS OF ALL...

I AM GOING TO EAT WIHT MY AUBTY TINA 2MORROW AT THE KEG

I AM GOING TO THE STATES THIS WEEKEND WITH AUNTY TINA AND SHOW PEOPLE I HAVEN'T SEEN IN AWHILE.YEA. CAN YOU SAY SHOPPING...

I AM GOING TO WONDERLAND FOR THE SCARY FEST THINGY. I CAN'T WAIT.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I WANT TO MAKE A BIG SHOUT OUT TO KATIE SAYING THANK YOU SOOOOOOOO MUCH FOR ALL THE HELP YOU HAVE BEEN FOR THE TOY DRIVE WITHOUT YOU THIS WOULDN'T BE AS BIG AS IT'S GONNA BE.

Can't wait for this weekend,
Madissen

p.s Prsion Break Sucks now cause they killed Sarah off the show....i'm gonna watch the show when it looks interesting not all the time now. I AM SO MAD AND UPSET.


I WANTED TO UPLOAD SOME PICS BUT IT ISN'T WORKING RIGHT NOW SO MAYBE LATER...

Sorry about not updating....Long Update and not even all of it...LOL

A few things to tell...

I was thinking about closing the toy drive up because of school being so busy and everything. I was so upset and I already promised toys to the hospital. Then I came home from a long weekend thinking how am I going to explain this to you all. Then a amazing thing happend. KATIE...Katie is Shelia's daughter. She came to me telling me that she would set up a box infront of her stand at the Hamilton market for toys to be donated to. YEAH. She is also going to help me buy spreading it around. THANK YOU SO MUCH KATIE. I needed help and Katie came. I am soooooo happy now. So like I said before I have emailed radio stations, tv stations and newspapers and maybe even getting people to hand flyers out in their community. I have the flyers done. If you would like some please leave a comment on here if you can't then send me a message to this email:

vanillaswril_cutie11@hotmail.com

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I had my Graduation. I am offically done High School and it feels GREAT. The video with Pictures of my grad will be up soon. So stay tuned for that.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Breast Cancer Awarness Month. I have told you all abou that last update I think lol. I am making more banners for you to see. Mainly of Pat who of course you know by now is a Breast Cancer Survivor. GO PAT GO YEAH.

Here is one banner. I am gonna make more.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Update all about Grad and School and Thanksgiving will be up tomorrow I am just to tired right now.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

WE MISSED YOU RACHEL AT GRAD HERE IS A PIC I MADE FOR HERE. NO SHE IS NOT DEAD LOL SO DON'T THINK BECAUSE IT SAYS WISH YOU WERE HERE THAT SHE IS DECEASED. SHE IS AWAY FOR SCHOOL.

Tired from a long weekend,

Madissen

BREAST CANCER AWARENESS MONTH

PLEASE MEET ONE AMAZING SURVIVOR...PAT(MY STEPMOM)



ONE TOUGH SURVIVOR...





Can't wait for Andrea to come and Grad,
Madissen

2 post today...

I ALMOST GOT RUN OVER YESTERDAY...

lol, I was going home from school and I was standing at the place where I cross(no lights) and I was waiting for some ppl to turn so I could cross. So they guy was waiting so I went then he went so I stoppped then he stopped then he kept going and I almost tripped into his car. STUPID MORON. Lol that was my scare attack yesterday.

CHILDHOOD CANCER AWARENESS MONTH IS OVER BUT THEY STILL NEED YOU...

Warrior Kaylie Kicking Leukemia's Butt!!

Lexie became Heaven's Newest Angel on THURSDAY, SEPTEMBER 20, 2007 at 6pm

www.caringbridge.org/visit/lexiethornton

This picture was taken 6 hours before she earned her wings

Brooke Is also Heaven's Newest Angel on SATURDAY, SEPTEMBER 22, 2007 at 9:19am

www.caringbridge.org/visit/brooke1

Thsi pic was taken before she was diagnosed

PLEASE STAY STUNED FOR NEXT POST...

Babysitting and Graduating

So as most of you know I had to babysit on Sat. It went very well. I really enjoyed babysitting Arwyn and Taylor. I did not have to babysit Sunday as their grandma was off work.

So I wnet shopping with shelia and al.It was fun. I bought some much needed things. I love my new winter coat I bought. HEHEHEHE.

My graduation is this thursday. I will offically be out of highschool. Look forward to pics and a video of me walking across the stage. I hope I dont trip.

well i off PRISON BREAK starts in like 5min...

Waiting for PRISON BREAK and excited about grad,
Madissen

p.s. RACHEL I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS YOU :) WISHING YOU WERE HERE. GRAD JUST WONT BE THE SAME WITHOUT YOU.

Madissen the Baker?

lol yup..I baked a cake on Wednesday nigth with Sheila(sp?). I was soooo good. It was chocolate with really really really sweet icing. I couldn't eat the cake cause the icing made my teeth hurt. But other than that it was good.

I bought fudge from the schoo. Some lady was selling it there. I bought some chocolate marshmellow. It is sooooooooooo good.

I babysit Arwyn and Taloy tomrrow. This is gonna be fun. You should see Taylor now. lol. he is totally freaking out over the slitest thing. Boy am I gonnae have my hands full. Oh well it extra cash in my pocket. For shopping maybe?lol.

Always remember "Happy Smiles" Thank you Miss Mila

Enjoying a "quite" night in my room lol,
Madissen

Time for Change...

School has become to much work now so I will not be posting everyday anymore. If it's not reading chapters its group work. I hate all this work.





So i'm only updating sometimes(when I have time) or if something really interesting happens.





I am babysitting arwyn and taylor this weekend. I have my high school graduation on Oct 4th. I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING. To much stress.





BREATH BREATH.... I'm going to bed tomorrow is one of my early days...





This is Tay...lol






Arwyn was not coperating lol. Maybe this weekend?

Tired and stressed lol,
Madissen

Sorry about not updating...

sorry for not updating Monday. I can't be long Arywn's next to me wanting me to play. School and sleep was what I did yesterday. and of course...

PRISON BREAK

It just seems to be getting so much better...well i g2g arwyn wants ME...

sleepy and hungry,
Madissen

(part 2)

ok so update on saturday and sunday...

Lucas birthday/grave party was GREAT. It was amamzing actually. We sang happy birthday then released some balloons. Then I read some poems. There was only Aunty Tina, Wade, Grandma and me. My dad was there taking the video and pictures. Thank you so much. You were a great help dad.

Then Aunty tina took wade, grandma and me out to lunch. It was really good. Dad went home because he was not feeling well.

Then I went to pick up my things from grandma's because I was going to my dad so he could update somethings on my computer then I was staying over at aunty tina's for the night.

So pat, my dad and I wetn shopping at wal-mart for some things and we saw uncle steve and wade there so I just got a ride back home with them.

So I got home and just hung out with uncle steve and wade.

Aunty Tina came home from work around 12:30am-1am. with chinese food.LOL. Anywas so we eat and stayed up until 3am.

I finally went to bed and woke up at 9:45am for church.

Church was really good. I saw Auntie. It was nice because I haven't seen her in awhile.

I spent the rest of the day with Aunty Tina and wade. Saw dad and pat again then Aunty Tina took me home. there is more than that but i'm tired. Sorry.

Sleeping early tonight,
Madissen

(Update part 1) AN ANGELS BIRTHDAY SEPTEMBER 22ND, 2007

Here is the story of Lucas. There is also birthday pics in there.

I AM NOT PUTTING THE PICTURES ON HERE BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT THEM TAKEN SO THEY ARE IN THE VIDEO...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tDoqOUpAjkg

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUCAS,
Madissen

Long Dat again.lol. Lucas' Birthday tommorow

Today was one boring day. LOL. I got to sleep in alittle before school. Then I went to school. I have the mailbox for the toys now. I am making the posters for the toy drive tomorrow.

LUCAS 8TH BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW. HE IS CELEBRATING IT IN HEAVEN AND WE ARE CELEBRATING IT ON EARTH.

PLEASE REMEMBER THE ONLY BIRTHDAY HE EVEN HAD WAS THE DAY HE WAS BORN.

Looking forward to Lucas' Birthday and Toy Drive,
Madissen

REALLY long day and TOY DRIVE UPDATE.YEAH.

It was a very long day at school today. Longer than it was supposed to. I had 4 classes already. Then on top of that I had to listen to a guest speaker. So my "free" time was not"free" today.lol. It was a very long day like I said. Then I came home...



In Loving Memory of Lucas Ryan Toy Drive is up and running at it's BIGGER then ever. Look forward to seeing it on tv, news papers and listening to it on radio stations. YEAH. We are going all out on this one.



-------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Lucas party will be on Sat if you want info please email me. Anyone who would love to come would be great. The more the merrier. Dad is coming to take pictures of the event. So we have some memories of Lucas' special day. Look forward to pictures.





The poster will be up soon...


THIS IS THE OFFICAL WEBSITE FOR THE TOY DRIVE. NO OTHER WEBSITES EXCEPT THIS ONE...





http://www.myspace.com/angellucas_toydrive






Getting ready for the BIG bang for the Toy Drive,
Madissen

Questions...

Do you ever wonder what your propose is?




I thought it was to be a teacher or a daycare worker. Then I though about working with abused kids as a social worker. Then I am now on a patch to be a child life therapist.



I love kids there is no doudt about it. I have become very attched to sick kids over the past year. Some of which I have become so attached to that when She passed away(Mila) I cried for awhile. I see these pictures and read stories about these little kids and I think that could be me or my children(when I have them). It could be my neighbour, school freind or family member. You just never know. I REALLY want to help these little Angels.

This is my purpose...

Another thing is that I make banners for the ones fighting and the ones we lost along the way. When I give the parent the banner I made. They send a message back saying how great they are and how wondeful it is because they now have more memories of their child. I espically like the ones that I put Angel wings on the ones we lost. I don't like that we lost them but putting wings on them makes them being angels in the sky so much more real.



Here are some that I made...Warriors. Angels and My myspace banner...

----------------------------------------------------------------------

UPDATE...

I went to school like any other boring day. LOL. I didn't do much today... Sorry.



Finding my purpose,
Madissen

3 months...

Today marks 3 months since Mila went home. As I am not her mother nor am I related to her it still hurts. I can't explain to you how much this little Angel affected me. She stole my heart from the first moment I saw her. She was such a precious blessing that was sent to Earth to show everybody how to love alittle more. From her beautiful smile to her bubbly laugh she shined on Earth like she shines in Heaven. Mila was such a princess, she was a girly girl. Pink all around. Mila was a true blessing on this Earth. Mila was Sunshine.

Missing you little Sunshine. Forever you will shine in the Heavens above. I hope one day to see you in Heaven and say thank you Mila for everything...

Mila please be with your mommy today and everyday. She is really finding it hard without you here. Like your Nana said right after you passed it was just shock believeing you were gone and now it's getting on without you. Please be with your family. I'm praying for your family as they get on without you. There is something that keeps them going. Everyday without you is a day closer to seeing you again.

Missing Sunshine..until we see you again..."HAPPY SMILES",

Madissen

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Update for today ummmm went to school then came home. All day it was Arywn and Taylor. I am getting so close to them. They are an amazing but very energitic bunch of kids lol. they wore me out. I got a babysittig job. YEAH. I have to babysit Arwyn and Taylor in 2 weekends. Looking forward to it. As they are the best kids(at times lol). Anyways I have to go to bed I am soooooooo tired.

Arwyn and Taylor wore me out,

Madissen

To interested in Prison Break to right Blog...lol

Lol so yesterday was good. I got to sleep in beofre school. Then I had class for a hour then I went home. Lol big day. I was in my room the whole time yesterday.

Then I saw it...PRISON BREAK...HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE. It was soooooooooo good. Better than I thought. I can't wait till sara has her baby in real life so she can come back on the show. So Michael and Sarah can be together. LOL. They are so cute together...

Well not much to update..sorry I didn't update.

Today's update will be up later on I promise...

Loving season 3 of Prison Break,

Madissen

Day of Shopping...and an Angels birthday coming up.

(I will be putting a pic like this in every blog.)




So as you can tell by the title we went shopping all day. As we I mean Grandma, Aunty Mary and Me.


First we went to church and it was better than the last but today we eeded up doing on kids day. So they whole church sermain was some guys singing for the kids. LOL. It was ok. So i'm going to have to go agin when its just a regular church sermain.


So as I said we went shopping. Then grandma and Aunty Mary ended up getting to see my new room. Well where i'm living. They were impressed. YEAH.


I HAVE A QUESTION FOR ALL WHO READS. LUCAS 8TH BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP ON SEPTEMBER 22ND. AS HE IS IN HEAVEN WE CANNOT CELEBRATE WITH HIM. SO WE ARE GOING TO HIS GRAVESITE FOR A BALLOON RELEASE. ANYBODY INTERESTED IN COMING PLEASE EMAIL ME. I WILL GIVE YOU THE DETAILS...










Missing Lucas everyday,


Madissen

Grandma's little Angel and PLEASE pray for these Warriors and Angels

Yup thats me.lol. Today was all grandma and I. We went shopping the wholed ay. The we came home to Grandpa's famous supper.Boy was that good and Aunty Mary came and had supper woth us. I didn't do anything very intersting today.


I do have some many prayers request PLEASE...

Boey has cancer and is in need of your prayers...Her real name is Jenessa and you can find more info on her here...
http://www.jenessabyers.com/


This is Boey the when she lost her hair because she relapsed



This is Boey helping raise money for Cancer...


This is Boey with her wig. She was really upset when she lost her hair. She is on vaction with her family. Her mom said "Until the water never reaches the sand Boey will continue to fight Cancer."



------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Mackenzie is also in need of your prayers she is fighting Cancer...


http://www.caringbridge.org/il/mackenzie/
This is Mackenzie right after she relapsed...




This is Mack getting her Bone marrow Transplant. Without this Mack wouldn't be here.




This is Mack getting some sun. She can't go in water because of her port. She is also alot bigger because of her steriods...



------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
PLEASE NEVER FORGET MISS MILA... AND HER MOMMY ANDI. ANDI REALLY NEEDS YOUR PRAYERS. BECAUSE LIFE WITHOUT MILA IS SO HARD...
http://www.myspace.com/andiwuvsmila

Miss Mila. Forever in my heart.


Sunshine Mila...

Mila and Andi...Nothing beats a mother's love for her daughter...




Mila in Andi's heart forever...


PLEASE pray for Andi. Losing Mila has been the hardest thing she has ever been through...


Praying for everybody,
Madissen