MAYJOR PRAYER REQUEST...PLEASE

I JUST FOUND OUT YESTERDAY THAT AN OLD FRIEND OF MINE MIGHT HAVE LEUKEMIA.

HE'S A YEAR OLDER THAN ME. THEY DID A BIOPSIE YESTERDAY AND THEY WONT KNOW FOR 10 DAYS.

I AM SO UPSET...PLEASE PRAY,

I WILL KEEP YOU UPDATEDE WHEN I KNOW MORE...

I CANNOT SAY WHO IT IS BECAUSE HE DOES NOT WANT THIS TO GET OUT AND HIS FAMILY WANTS IT PRIVATE. PLEASE JUST PRAY...

Merry Christmas In Heaven...

TO ALL ANGELS..MERYY CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN...WE MISS YOU AND WISH YOU WERE SPENDING JESUS BIRTHDAY HERE WITH US.

LUCAS

MILA

ASHLEY

KAYLA

MARIA

MATTHEW

AUSTIN

CALEB

BEN

TANNER

ELGIN

ELIZABETH

ELESHA

JUST TO NAME A FEW...WE LOVE YOU...

FLY HIGH SWEET ANGELS...UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN WHEN WE ALL GO HOME.

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MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE...HAPPY HOLIDAYS ASWELL :) ENJOY SPENDING TIME WITH YOUR FAMILY AS MANY PARENTS ARE GOING WITHOUT A CERTAIN ANGEL THIS CHRISTMAS.

HOLD YOUR FAMILY TIGHT, NEVER TAKE THEM FOR GRANTED, ALWAYS SAY I LOVE YOU, NEVER FEEL ASHAMED TO KISS YOUR PARENTS....

TOMORROW IS NOT GURANTEED....

PLEASE IF YOU DRINK DON'T DRIVE, DRINK RESPONSABLY...

BE SAFE, EAT LOTS, OPEN PRESENTS AND LOVE ONE ANOTHER,

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS,

MADISSEN

6 months...

Yesterday was 6 month, Since...

We have heard un update
Seen new pictures
Watched new video's
Heard cute story's



6 month's since Mila went home...

To some people it may have been another day, but to her family, friends and the people she touched it was a very sad day.



Do I dwell on the past? Yes, sometimes I wonder what she would be like now, but then I stop myself and think. She wasn't meant to be here after June 18th, 2007 at 9:38pm.



Mila thank you for touching my life. I miss you little Sunshine. You were the light of my day since I heard about you. You will forever be a part of my life...

Missing Sunshine,
Madissen



Baby Mila


Mila before being Diagnosed


Mommy and Mila


Mila(Taken Christmas eve 2006 her Nana wrote "Best Christmas present ever" :) )


Precious Mila

Do I get too attached???

My passion is doing this for the kids. I would help any kid in a Heart Beat....

But kids with Cancer is my LIFE...

There are 3 important warriors in my life that I did get attched to...

Lucas Jordan Ryan...Lucas is my 6 month old cousin who passed away from leukemia at 6 months of age. It is going on 8 years in March(2008) since we have seen his sweet smile and heard his adorable giggle. But how could I not get attached he's family. He's my cousin....I am starting up a non-profit foundation for Lucas to help families with sick kids. Look for that hopefully next summer 2008.I NEED HELP WITH IT. IF ANY ONE IS INTERESTED PLEASE EMAIL ME...

Mila Casie Phillips...How do I put into words someone who I have never met yet fell in love with since the moment I saw her? She is "Sunshine". That's the only word to describe 2 year old Mila who was diagnosed with an Inoperable Brain Tumor on Sept 6th, 2007. Mila lived for alomost 9 months after being diagnosed but the tumor was to much. On June 18th, 2007 at 9:38pm Mila went back home to our heavenly father.

I read her story on myspace and was attached. But I was drawn to her story. Like I was meant to for a reason. I believe that God wanted me to meet her and hear her story. To help me figure out exacty what I want to be. To make me realize we don't live forever, everyday is a gift. The last time I had cried was at Lucas' funeral, then Mila's story came along...My heart is missing a certain Angel....

Naythaniel Caleb Andrew Scott Bedard... I heard about Nayt's story on facebook. His mom emailed me and we started to chat. The I found out that this little boy who was 2 was just diagnosed with Leukemia on Sept 7th, 2007. Leukemia? the same thing my cousin had. Well I couldn't help Lucas but I can help Nayt. So I started a myspace for him. More than 1000 people joined to help pray for this amazing warrior fighting a fight no child should have to. I believe God choose me to help with this journey that I am proud to be apart of...

3 kids I have been attached to...

Yes I have meet other kids along the way. That's what I do I help people but I never got attached to them. It hurts when I hear there doing good and then they pass away. But if it didn't hurt you wouldn't be human. When a person passes away it's sad it's your nature to be sad. I have over 500 kids on my myspace with cancer, sbs, autsium and other things. Am I attached to all of them NO. Most I don't even know there names. I feel bad but I just can't. I know I have limits.

Lucas, Mila and Naythaniel were choosen by God for me to find and learn about. To help them in this Journey or just to experince a story so real. I BELIEVE...

I AM "LIVING THE DREAM." This is the motto of one website choosing to help kids with Cancer and other illnesses.

DO I GET ATTACHED TO MUCH???

I am hoping to get into camp trillum to work with kids and families who are or who have experinced cancer. One thing the guy asked was "Does she get to attached?" Yes was the answer by many...

If they knew me well they would know the truth. GOD...He is the reason for everything...

I feel I will talk to people about this but, they just don't listen and it hurts because this is what I am passionate about and what field I want go into and nobody listens...

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Thank you pat for your words on my last post. I deleted the trouble makers and I am contiuing with his page. I will NOT give up and give them the satifaction of them winning. I fight for the children I do NOT give up. I am doing this for Nayt and the other kids...

"Living The Dream,"

Madissen :)

1 STEP FORWARD 5 STEPS BACK...

THIS IS ONE PLACE WHERE I CAN FEEL I CAN BLOG AND NO ONE WILL JUDGE...

AS MOST OF YOU KNOW I STARTED A MYSPACE TO DO WITH NAYTHANIEL ALITTLE BOY IN ALBERTA FIGHTING CANCER.

FOR THE PAST 6 MONTHS I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING A SCAMMER WHO IS CALMING TO HAVE SICK KIDS AND SOME WHO HAVE DIED. IT WAS ALREADY PROVEN UNTRUE AND THE POLICE HAVE BEEN CALLED YET AGAIN.

WHEN WILL SHE STOP?

WILL I PUT OUT ABLOG ON IT BECAUSE SHE WAS USING SOME OF THE OTHER CANCER WARRIORS PICTURES. AND THEY DO NOT KNOW THE SOTRY BEHIND ASHLEY. SO I PUT THAT THEY SHOULD DELET AND BLOCK HER.

SO THEM SOME PERSON SAYS THAT THIS PAGE SHOULD BE FOR NAYT ONLY AN DNOT THE DRAMA.

HELLO????THIS PERSON IS STEALING OTHER PICTURES OF KIDS CLAIMING THEM TO BE SICK OR DEAD AND YOU WANT ME TO SIT BACK AND LET THIS HAPPEN WHEN YOU KNOW IT'S WRONG.

I DONT THINK SO....

THIS ISNT THE FIRST TIME THIS HAS HAPPEND

I AM THINKING OF CLOSING DOWN ALL 3 OUT OF4 MYSPACES AND FINDING SOMEONE ELSE TO CONTINUE WITH NAYT'S.

AM I WRONG TO DO HELP OTHER'S. WE HAVE PVER 1000 PEOPLE ON NAYT'S MYSPACE AND AT LEASTE IF SOME PEOPLE SEE THE BLOG AND BLOCK HER I DID A GOOD THING IN KNOWING THAT THEY ARE SAFE FROM HER SCAMMING.

I AM SO UPSET RIGHT NOW. I DID THE PAGE FOR NAYT AND BECAUSE I BELIEVE I WAS LEAD TO HIM FOR A REASON...

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO?




HELP???

WITH TEARS AND SADNESS,
MADISSEN

Small Update

TOY DRIVE TOOK A TURN FOR THE WORST THIS YEAR...SO NEW IDEA.

THE TOY DRIVE IS STILL GOING ON. IT'S GOING TO BE ON UNTIL NEXT YEAR(2008).
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THE LUCAS RYAN FOUNDATION WILL BE STARTING THIS YEAR. HOPEFULLY I WILL HAVE IT UP BY SUMMER 2008 :)

I AM LOOKING FOR PEOPLE TO HELP THOUGH I AM STARTING A FACEBOOK GROUP ABOUT IT SO PLEASE STAY TUNED...
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ASHELY HALL EARNED HER WINGS AND WENT HOME, ASWELL AS KAYLA WEBER. THEY WERE BOTH AROUND THE SAME AGE AND FIGHTING CANCER...

PLEASE PRAY FOR THEIR FAMILIES AS THEY PASSED AWAY RIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS...
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NAYT IS NOT DOING WELL AND NEEDS YOUR PRAYERS..HE MIGHT HAVE TO GO TO HOSPITAL. HE IS NOT EATING OR SLEEPING...

PLEASE GOD HEAL NAYT'S BODY. RID HIM OF THIS CANCER. PLEASE ANGELS WATCH OVER HIM TONIGHT...PLEASE STORM HEAVEN WITH YOUR PRAYERS...
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MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS

MUCH LOVE,
MADISSEN